#7 It's a wrap for my second last semester!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. In 2023, I am proud to say that this is my very first post.

This semester feels like a moment when time flies. I wanna cry every time I finish all of my coursework. I did everything I could. Also, thanks to my study partners, who you both went through with me when we joined the same group two semesters ago. I'm glad that I have a friend. Alhamdulillah, HE made Lau Chee Min and Syed Husyairy as my virtual study mate. I feel proud of both of them.

We were in the mood to finish our last task. We were rushing and struggling to work on this. While on leave, M kept texting me to accompany her via online teams once she reached the hotel. She keeps trying to figure this out. We're all scared because we're in the middle of something. She took six classes this semester in order to graduate this year. Very dedicated woman! She has a lot of opinions and views, and I like talking to her. Sometimes, she was also funny.

I've been looking forward to this course, Research Methodology, for a long time. I am still trying to figure out why, but I enjoy doing research. I want to know how to do research the right way. So that I can be a good lecturer one fine day. That could be part of the reason. Furthermore, research knowledge is hard to find and that it is very, very, very unique! You have your grounds for doing it. The first step I might do poorly because it always starts with my idea, which could be a more creative way to study a topic.

And do you know what? I changed the title and some points of my research after re-reading the conversations between my supervisor and me. What a mess! I needed to understand his messages. I had left 12 hours before I had to turn in my report. Somehow I'll find a way to cope. My SV is very friendly and quickly answers my texts. Dr Rizal Baharum is an excellent help to me. And, yes, I have wanted him to be my SV for a long time (since the beginning of semester 1, 2021), just that I don't have the guts to come up with a research topic and talk to him about it.

While working on the slides and the report, I conversed with S. He had just started making slides and finishing his report. He was concentrating on his work. I asked him what I should and shouldn't put on the slides. His responses cause me to think more deeply. I like his creative way, and the way he explains makes me understand. We all think and act the same way. I had previously informed him that I intended to take a day off a day before the deadline to complete all of the reports and slides, as well as another two courses. I know that if I have a loophole, I will be unable to concentrate. But until now, we are burning the midnight oil, and time goes by quickly. We're all keeping track of the time.

Kembali Terang, but it still needs to be terang (clear). This caption came to me suddenly when I was put in the Instagram note (I was thinking about the new features and wondering if IG could capture what was going on in our minds, and since I was a new user some time ago, I was surprised). The rhythm, lyrics, and tune were all fantastic, and I like the high pitch; you can try it. Actually, has implicit meaning leads to humour. S was an expert and a spontaneous at it.

Time is running out. I stayed online with them until nearly 3 am, when we had to give our final research proposal yesterday. I also made my parts till end as all of our slides only began the day before. Break and start off to bed.

After dawn, I quickly prepare to give a presentation in the first class, Organisational Behaviour, that day. My parents will wake me up by checking on me every day. They will call my name, and all they want to know is whether I'm awake. For now, we had already made the group video, so I was getting ready as my group was the last to present. As usual, I have butterflies in my stomach. The class is almost over at noon so that it will go on for an extra hour.

Move on to the Research Methodology class, which is the next class. At around 12:30 pm, the class started. I am still preparing my part and the presentation will be based on the list of names order.

M always kept me up to date on her whereabouts. The photo was taken before she started her talk. She seemed to be happy. They both gave theirs with a lot of confidence. Not like me at all. My sense of self-worth is low. I'm constantly questioning whether I'll be able to convey my progress in front of coordinators. But this time, I've gained confidence from my SV, who has taught me the proper flow of conducting research. I'm was emotionally affected. After Dr has shared his knowledge with me, I will make sure that I share it with both of them. 'Sharing is caring".

Everyone, including him, was exhausted. Look above. He appears to have been the most exhausting. I'm sure they all finished their reports yesterday morning before the presentation. M confirmed with her best public relations skill to update me live that all our classmates were in a zombie state yesterday and had been owls. Somehow it was funny. Bravo! That is the life of a student. Some work, including three of us, while others study full-time. What distinguishes us? The time, the passion, and the experiences. (Nyra,2023)

M began as the first presenter and has done an excellent job, as well as S. They were very confident in their ability to present and respond. Salute! Meanwhile, I was awaiting feedback from my SV before it was my turn to present. Thankfully, he returned to me to update the comments on the same day and wished me luck. For a while, I felt relieved. He saves me!

They were all waiting to see who was the last person to present as the clock struck 4.45 pm, and then it was my turn. I want a quick presentation because I'm exhausted and haven't eaten anything all day. Worst of the worst! I could still control my nerves and wish I had been able to answer the questions prompted by the coordinators. HE aided me, Alhamdulillah. I delivered my presentation successfully and accepted constructive feedback from both coordinators on areas in which I need to improve.

Immediately following my presentation, I texted my SV to update the feedback from my coordinators after they had commented on my progress. He inquired about my day. My SV then told me what I needed to do for the next step. I took note of his message and will begin either today or tomorrow. I need some rest and re-energize before continuing with the research chapters.

I'm posting all this because it could be our last semester together. Sad but grateful for a short journey. May our acquaintance can be last and we still can keep in touch. Thanks for almost around 10 months. M and I have planned to graduate by this year while S plan to graduate by next year. M was like a flashback to the first time we met and started a conversation, up until now without leaving a message, especially about studies and supporting one another. To S, I only began chatting to him a month after M. After that, we can communicate and treat among us as like friends. Both are them actually funny too. Understand and be understood.

I'd like to thank everyone on my contact list who has helped me with my studies. Thank you for assisting me in providing motivation, evidence, and whatnot. I will continue to seek your assistance for my next steps.

p/s: I will not include HAHA in my storyline because the majority of my storylines actually will end with HAHA (implicit) because I am very entertaining in any situation. If you read my line seriously, you will find seriousness in this story. Please read in a lighthearted manner. Stay read and enjoy my reading.

Sincerely from my heart.

29/1/2023, 9.31 pm

"I hope we all can have better marks, and I am waiting for my next semester."